We now have BIG KIDS. They are taller than me, half of them drive, one is out of school, and one thinks he is smarter than everyone at his school (he’s a senior…it happens)! Needless to say, our life has its share of disappointments. It may appear in this context I am disappointed with our kids, but the truth is I mostly struggle with disappointment in myself. The mistakes they make often run parallel to the mistakes I make/made in parenting them. That is hard stuff to swallow
…I liked it when they looked like this….
My encounters this week have been centered on 1 John. I read this book a LOT because it ALWAYS reminds me of who i am, the power I have, and the LOVE He has for me. Monday it was “Hey Girl, walk in the LIGHT”.(sometimes I may or may not hear God use Ryan Gosling talk in my head when he wants to get my attention.) In him there is no darkness, we all fall short, we all sin, but through the blood of Jesus, we are forgiven…every one of us! Tuesday it was LOVE your brothers and sisters, be a light and stay away from the darkness of hate. OH and also…DO NOT LOVE THE WORLD! AND PLEASE…BY ALL MEANS…ABIDE IN ME…AND in case you are not sure about it little lady, the desires of the flesh, of the eyes, and the pride of life are ALL “the world” the lead to darkness and those who abide in these things will waste away. In the end, This one got me…1 John2:28-29 says “And now little children, abide in him, so that when he appears we may have confidence and not shrink from him in shame at his coming. THEN came the big dog today…what brought me to my knees!
1 John:3…FIRST LINE…See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! WOW, I needed to feel loved LAVISHLY by my father today. See, as I said at the beginning, we have big kids and parenting big kids is hard y’all! Adulting is hard when you are only adulting yourself, but when you try to adult yourself as well as your almost adult children…its just TO MUCH ADULTING you know. SCARY!!! I see my friends who are also trying to adult while parenting children who think they are adults BUT clearly they are not ready to adult, and we all just seem tired and sad and scared and frustrated and defeated and …, and…, and…, well you get the picture. But in this I take heart, I am LOVED by the most high God. My kids are LOVED by the most high GOD. My hope in Christ purifies my heart and renews my strength each day, and I remember that I am not adulting and parenting alone. God loves me AND my big kids! WE ALL make mistakes and mess up DAILY, but each day brings about night and each night brings about a new day full of God’s HOPE, GRACE, MERCY, FORGIVENESS AND LOVE.
So for all you parents out there, fighting the good fight of raising BIG KIDS…I feel ya, I love ya, and I am praying for ya! This too shall pass….I hear they get better around 25!